Friendships and relationships break off for different reasons. Reasons that we choose or end up becoming inevitable. Recently, I came to witness the breakdown of one of this close friendships of mine (the overarching theme of this week's posts), and the headlining feature cause of this was just how much I withheld or how much … Continue reading Survivor’s Guilt
Nothing is more unsatisfying than empty love. i.e. love that has no basis for existence and just wafts away into being like a bubble in a canned soda- momentarily floating to the top- but popping thereafter the air within that was used to temporarily preserve the liquid substance in the bottle. Be it a longing … Continue reading Love Politics
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YOU DON'T SPIT AT THE CAST, NOR DO YOU LEAVE YOUR SOAP, ALL OVER THE COUNTER TOP, OR YOU'LL HAVE TO RE-WRITE THE SCRIPT, AND MUSTY GROWTHS WILL ACCUMULATE, AND NO ONE'LL CLEAN THAT UP FOR YOU AGAIN.
I am fighting a war I know I cannot win. In this war, everyone joins in, apart from myself. I alone, being the artist and curator to a unique niche construction, let the clouds rain havoc and plaguing the person that I purpose to become. Each telling action a symbol curved onto soapstone, staying there … Continue reading The scenario
There comes a time when you need to cure yourself often of the intentional schedule of doing this after that after that. Most recently Paramore provided to me, the best antidote to this, with their tunes that found me upside down in my dormroom during the chilliest winter ever. I swear something somewhere froze when … Continue reading Hard times and some sunshine
It's been a year of learning curves, and Indecision was a core source of most of my trips and missteps throughout the process. A year seems way too long to learn that I am indecisive, let alone learning how to be decisive. What is it with indecision that makes me conclude that it's been lurking … Continue reading A year-long lesson
Say something... Say something nitwit. She's not gonna be here forever? Ask something, Ask anything. Ask her what she's studying She comes in, she sits down. You look straight-faced onto your big encyclopedia-like books, trying so hard to concentrate your eyes on the words on the page, but the printing on the page turns to … Continue reading What’s your name again?
I have never understood disappointment, never known how to deal with disappointment, I dread disappointment, and I am not always super excited to stare disappointment at its face. But each time I take way more weight than my muscle can lift, disappointment comes knocking, and when I open the door, it knocks me down hard. Thus far, disappointments have only shown me that I barely know my limits in some things that I take on, and while I try to take them on bravely, I can only do so much.